As much as I love Summer & the warmer months, there is something about Autumn that makes me feel really content. September, to me, marks the beginning of Autumn I love nothing more than lighting my autumnal scented candles, turning on all the fairy lights and getting cosy on the sofa. None of that pumpkin spices latte shite, I aint about that life. Eugh. It also means we are one season away from CHRISTMAS! Now that, I can get onboard with! I’m also super excited for our local firework display that takes place in Autumn, I can’t wait to take Teddy. Chances are he won’t give a shit, but i’ll feel satisfied and like i’ve fulfilled some sort of mummy mission.
I thought I would give you a run down of all the Autumn goals I am hoping to get done on both a personal & blogging level. I’m going to try and do one of these for every season..
I feel like since becoming a Mummy in May i’ve really neglected myself. Not just physically (it’s hard to eat healthily or ‘right’ when you have a baby who is needy as fuck) but more mentally and emotionally. If i’m not sorting Teddy out, I am running around tidying up, cooking or doing something on the blog. Then before I know it, it’s bedtime and my day is over. I miss reading. I can’t remember the time I picked up a physical book & read. I also can’t remember the last time I took a shower that lasted longer than five minutes. I don’t know why because I know Teddy is in the perfectly capable hands of his Dad, I just feel like he needs me and I can’t fully relax. I want to treat myself to a face mask every once in a while (mainly because my skin looks & feels like shit at the moment). I want to do more than shove my hair in a wet top-knot at least once! It stays there for days & ends up becoming a frizzy, knotted, curly mess. I want to actually dry my hair WITH a hairdryer… ahhhh a girl can dream.
I tend to try & write my posts when Teddy has gone to bed and I get so sidetracked! I end up procrastinating on Twitter, Pinterest or Youtube and before I know it, I haven’t written a single thing and that means I have to write them when Aaron is on his day off from work, or finished early. I want to actually sit in bed when Teddy goes to sleep and get shit done. When Aaron is off, I want to be doing things as a family. Not worrying that I haven’t got any blog posts scheduled for the week after or any photos edited. Teddy tends to go to bed at 8:30/9, so i’m going to attempt to write for an hour every night and get as much blogging, scheduling and editing done as I can, then Aaron’s days off can be solely focused on us as a family.
I feel like since having Teddy I haven’t gone out as much as I had hoped. You get so caught up in this mummy (read as: oh my god what the hell have I done?!) bubble that before you know it, you’ve spent the day in milk covered pyjamas, forgotten to pee all day and have been nursing the same drink for 5 hours. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like we are little hermits and never leave the comfort of our home, I just mean I want to go on more walks & maybe even attend some baby classes! I think my anxiety is getting in the way of actually going out with Teddy alone. I don’t know why but I panic that something will go wrong, Teddy will be extra twattish and if he cries the other mums will judge me. Ya-da, Ya-da it’s a whole palaver and by the time i’ve decided to pluck up the courage and leave the house, it’s pissing it down! My maternity leave, unfortunately, isn’t going to last forever and I don’t want to look back and wish I had done more with Teddy. At the end of the day if he cries, he cries. If it rains, he has his rain cover & I have a coat. I aint gonna’ melt.
Hopefully I can achieve some of these things, three is doable right? I’ll keep you updated as we approach Winter. I’d love to know if there is anything you are hoping to achieve/do more of?